Kangsen Feka Wakai Can't Breathe
I Can’t Breathe
I can’t breathe because I watched the news and saw myself, crawling on a pot-holed filled street from Monrovia to Conakry by way of Freetown. I am the other. I named my last born Ebola, but I still can’t breathe.
I am Eric, Mike and Tamir. My grandma calls me Amadou, and my friends Trayvon. I inhabit your dreams. I am the night to your day. The bad to your good, and the cry to your laughter. So I laugh to breath. I laugh to let the air swim in, but I feel an arm grabbing me. I am humid like a New Orleans summer night. I gasp. Grasping for the Bayou's wind, yet I can't breathe.
Yemoya, abeg o!
I see you. I see her. I see him. I see them but I barely see myself in the cracked mirror on the pavement. I can’t breathe.
Sir, I just can’t breathe.
So I drift above like air on a Chicago Fall morning. I hug the clouds, spit out rain, shine like the sun, then I see myself lying on a concrete pavement. I smell the powder. I dive to the pile of spent shells. I hear the chorus humming. I am asleep but still can’t breathe.
Kwifon, you fit see me so?
I sleepwalk through Heathrow, De Gaulle and O’Hare in a layer of soot, which all can see but me. I can’t breathe.
I smoke a joint for Fela, but still can’t breathe. I chew khat and read Achebe, but still can’t breathe. I shave my locks for Madiba…I try to resurrect Sankara…I say a prayer in Lingala. I can’t breathe, so I am booking my next trip alongside Sun Ra.
Kangsen Feka Wakai